Showing posts with label coping. Show all posts
Showing posts with label coping. Show all posts

Monday, December 08, 2014

Mrs Egeland Apologises

Dear Readers,

I’m writing to apologise for my absence. It mightn’t be over yet.

The last few months, I have been struggling with some personal issues, that I would love to share with you but I don’t know quite how without sounding like I’m whinging.

My health has worsened. To the point where I’m teetering on the edge of a total breakdown again, this time I’m emotionally stronger. But I’m not sure how long I will be able to last.

My creative impulses are still there but I’m not making anything new, I’m not writing hardly at all, what little creativity that is created is mediocre and not worth anyone’s attention. The new blog lies unused and unappreciated, as I am unable to cope with the level of stress creating a new form for this blog would entail.

The only really worthy creation is my novel, which is right in the middle of publication. Artwork and cover colours are really the only honest-to-good creation I am able to work on, and that is in conjunction with a layout artist and my editor, so my input is minimal.

Unfortunately, I can’t share that with you, not yet, because I’m anxious that the results be seen at their finish rather than half-way through.

Its closing in to the world’s biggest, most expensive festival, Christmas. Something I personal don’t celebrate, so I’m not even doing anything for that. I have a GREAT idea for a homemade decoration that could be customised for every occasion, but even that lies stagnant inside my head as I am too exhausted to even near my sewing machine.

Sometimes, there are moments in life when health, mental and physical have to take precedence over everything else. It seems that if I could just improve a little, I would have the impetus to get back to blogging, creating and sharing the results with you all.

At the moment though, I feel stuck in a rut. As if I had fallen down a deep pit and without a huge shift I can’t get out. No matter how hard I try to pull myself out, to call for help, to see the light I can’t. I merely wear my already worn body out.

So for now, you lovely readers will have to wait it out. I have hope to be able to show you my new book in the next few months.

Thanks for you patience,

Until next time,


Monday, June 23, 2014

Mrs Egeland Talks Health

I’ve been trying the last few months to stay on my mission to inspire creativity. Then I was sitting on my couch, working up energy to finish my cleaning and it struck me that talking about my health, my homesickness and its physical symptoms may, just may, be helpful to someone else.

Please don’t worry, this isn’t going to be a pity post. This is a public service announcement, sort of.

Gilbert Syndrome, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Homesickness

Those are the three things I am currently suffering from. Gilbert Syndrome I have had since birth, its a genetic disorder that according to most western medicine doesn’t hurt, doesn’t cause ill health and doesn’t affect anything more than your bilirubin levels.

Chronic Fatigue Syndrome… what to say about this? I had suffered from this ailment in my youth and unfortunately and apparently it has returned.

Homesickness, I have written quite a lot of pity posts about this in this blogs previous incarnation. Homesickness at any level is destructive and horrendous, its one of the hardest feelings to experience. Unfortunately without experiencing it many people find it difficult to understand and/or relate to. So if you are suffering from this, take comfort, though few around you may understand, you are not alone. You are allowed to feel the way you do, don’t feel guilty.

Surviving First Arrival Homesickness

When you first arrive some place new, a new home, a new country, a new town etc, its normal and natural that you may suffer from this kind of homesickness. It’s equally as horrible as the more advanced homesickness, but their is hope. There are things you can do, that may help you adjust to your new surroundings.

  • Get to know your new surroundings. Learn where the best shops are, find your new favourite place to get coffee. Enjoy discovering your new home.
  • Learn the language/culture of your new surroundings. If you have emigrated learn the language and the culture. If you have moved somewhere in your own country, learn the history of your new home.
  • Join groups or clubs, or take part in your religion. The point of this is to make friends, new friends that can help you integrate into your new culture. Making new friends will make your new surroundings feel less foreign.
  • Have regular contact with family and friends you have left behind. Keeping in touch is really important. When you move away from the place that’s familiar its easy to feel like you have lost your sense of self, having regular contact with parents or other family members and friends will help you stay centred.
  • Get on with life. I know this sounds obvious. You might think that I being ridiculous to point this out, that you have no choice put to go to work, or go to class. What I mean to say is that don’t put your life on hold, go out and socialise, don’t hide away and wallow in your pain. It will just make you negative and maudlin.

Try these suggestions and see how you gradually feel better. I have suffered from First Arrival Homesickness and all of these things helped me feel better. I hope that they will help you too.

Physical Symptoms of Long Term Homesickness

What I tell you next is what I am suffering from at the moment. Perhaps you too are struggling with Long Term Homesickness and have other physical symptoms that you have no explanation for.

As I said at the outset, I have GS and CFS. GS I am 100% sure of having and I’m suffering the symptoms of CFS. I spoke to my GP lately, and he took blood tests that I haven’t heard back about yet.

It was my GP that after a talk put forth the following theory.

My homesickness is making me physically ill. These are some of my symptoms:

  • Lethargy.
  • Fatigue.
  • Swollen glands in my neck and under my armpits.
  • General malaise.
  • Flu-like symptoms.
  • Lack of stamina. I can’t clean my small apartment without regular breaks, it should take me 45 mins to an hour to clean, instead it can take me an entire day.
  • Dull, mild headaches and dizzy spells.

Just to name a few, most of these can be pinned to the CFS, if that’s what it is. Which is why that’s what I thought I had, but what if it wasn’t CFS? What if that’s why after 5 months in Britain (my home country) I was feeling well again?

I’m becoming convinced that my physical health is suffering because of my homesickness. Perhaps its psychosomatic? Or perhaps the stress of living in a country I don’t feel at home in is doing damage to my already compromised condition? I have no answers to these questions, until I return to Britain permanently I can’t say whether my symptoms will improve.

All I can do is wait and hope that I will be able to return soon. In the meantime though I can share this in hopes that others will find it and find comfort and possibly explanations to their own sufferings.

I promise next post will be more light hearted.

Until then,